Days of rest - Biggest Loser

I've lost track of the days but today is March 8th :)
So I consciously took off Saturday, Sunday and Monday (Monday wasn't really planned but it happened that way) from working out after working out 6 days straight, but got back to it tonight and went back to an old standby - the treadmill.

After reading back over my old journal I noticed that I was doing alot on the treadmill even after I started at the gym I always warmed up with the treadmill for awhile first and I was having good success with losing weight.

I only did 2 miles but I did include some inclines and did some jogging and running too.  I felt like I could do more and not sure why I didn't.  I definately need to get in to see my doctor and get the go ahead from him to push myself without worrying about a heart attack. 

Not sure why but I've always wanted to be a runner.  However, I've never felt comfortable running because of my weight.  Thinking people would see me and say "don't bother" or "look at her, she looks ridiculous" also I worried about my knees running with too much weight (I've been told by coaches not to start running until I had lost such and such pounds to save wear and tear on my knees). I wonder what Jillian Michaels would say?? Of course I don't have a staff of doctors and trainers around to watch over me, so hence my hesitation.  However, the few times that I have actually ran outside or on the treadmill (never at the gym, they had cameras and there was usually someone else there nor at home unless I was alone because I prefer no one to be around when I do) I've loved it.  I love the way it feels and I love it when I feel strong.  

I'm so anxious for spring and clear roads.  I probably still won't run in public much lol, at least not at first.  But I'm determined that by this summer, I will be running a couple of days a week and hopefully I will be able to go further than from one electricity pole to another before having to walk for a break.  By July I want to be running one mile, maybe I can do it sooner!.

I just love The Biggest Loser, they inspire me so much!  They all work hard and even though I feel partial to the black team I'm excited to see them all doing so good.

Food today:
B: protein shake
S: fruit snacks
L: PB on crackers (on a field trip and my bread at home went bad so no sandwiches), apple, pretzels
S: small sandwich from store and harvest chips
D: 1 c. pasta, chicken breast with sauce and a bit of provolone cheese
S: fudgcicle, pretzels

Alot of carbs today :(

Activity today:
44 minutes on the treadmill
approx 25 min. leg lifts and crunches

Looking forward to tomorrow and working out!

checking in March 6th

Not sure of the day lol, and too tired to go check my log book.
Soooo, I've decided not to track the weight on the scale for awhile as its just frustrating me and creating a negative energy (which will not help).  Instead, I am going to focus on living my life each day as a healthy lifestyle living person would.

The Law of Attraction works best when you focus on the end results you want and letting go of the process to get there.  The best way and fastest way to get the life you want is to start living it anyway.

Each day I will strive to make healthy choices in the foods I eat, following serving sizes not package sizes. Why do so many foods and drinks we buy in convenient stores often give you 2 to 3 servings per package - are there really many of us that will share them with one or two friends or split the contents into 2 to 3 separate containers for later servings?? Not many I'm guessing.  So all the more reason to plan my meals and carry single serving snacks with me so I'm never at the mercy of a convenience store purchase.  I will continue to drink my water and strive to increase that to be sure I stay properly hydrated.  I will try to make my workouts count more times than not.  I really do not like the word "try" but still I have to be realistic.  I'm a mom, a business owner, 42 and very much overweight - there are going to be days I just don't feel like pushing it hard and that's okay.  As long as I can tip the scale (no pun intended) in my favor the majority of the time, believe in myself, and live as if.... I will get there.

Days 60-62 ......

Day 60
B: Kashi Go Lean w/ skim
L: turkey mini burgers w/ fries and salad bar at Ruby Tuesday
S: Protein bar, String Cheese
S: Pink Lady Apple my fav :), almonds
D: Turkey Burger lol (just now getting to dinner at almost 9pm).
Think I'll actually be able to make it through the day without more chocolate (other than what covered my protein bar) that is a big accomplishment as I've been craving chocolate alot lately and been giving into it.

Workout: Jari Love Get Ripped DVD using 10, 8, 5 and 2 pound weights.   I went a little lighter on DBs for some of the sets than I've done in the past and a little heavier on some others.  I've been wondering if I over did it with my workouts a few weeks ago and that is why I got so tired and achey at times the last few weeks.  I'm feeling better now so I'm starting out a little lighter and will work my way back up.  Just because I can lift heavier doesn't mean my body wants to do a whole workout like that just starting out.  I can't wait to start feeling and seeing muscle definition :) once I get into a good groove.

Day 61:
Went to breakfast with my Dad for his birthday :)
B: eggs, homefries and toast
L: Ramen noodles (bad choice but I was running out the door :( ),
S: Pretzels, snack size snickers (ugh)
D: 2 Fajitas, Orange
S: Smoothie (yogurt and cherry)

Workout:
3 Miles Walk Away the Pounds, 30 wall pups

Day 62: I had planned to do a 24 hour fast but changed my mind after getting a divination message that I needed more calories from protein and carbs to get myself losing again.
B: Smoothie
S: RF String cheese, almonds (100 calorie pack)
L:  I planned a lite lunch of salad greens and shrimp due to the planned fast.  So by the time 2pm rolled around and I was getting to wanting lunch after deciding not to do a fast, did I go for my salad and shrimp.  NOPE I went the complete other direction and ordered Domino's pizza.  

Honestly not sure what is wrong with my head lately.  Laziness? frustration? gluttony?

I feel like I shouldn't even be blogging right now because my head is crazy with this back and forth shit, one day I'm on plan, the next I'm completely off.  One week I'm doing good with solid food and exercise, the next I'm doing two fasts and skipping a workout.  I'm saying one thing and doing another. Wanting one thing but doing actions that won't get me there.  Being hard on myself and the next making excuses.  I know better than this, I'm going crazy I swear ughhhhhhhhhh

Days 57, 58 & 59 - achey ugh

Day 57 Friday
weight: 225.2 (guess my mantra worked)

This was a weird day, snow storm, son stayed home (well he came with me to the shop for 1/2 a day then we went home).  I decided (for some reason) to do another 24 hour fast.  After doing a little more research on the website that promotes 24 hour fasts I learned that his program recommends twice a week.  I planned to start another after lunch.  I had forgotten about that and was having snacks until 4 before I remembered lol.  So I started my fast at about 4pm.  I didn't start to feel physically hungry until about 2 pm the next day. Just to be clear though, the fasts that I'm doing are not mainly for the weightloss (though that's a nice benefit if it stays off) but its mainly for the detoxing and to learn more about my relationship with food and hunger. I need to learn when my body is really physically hungry and not just when I'm stressed or bored.
I did work out for awhile.
Food:
B: Yogurt & Cherry smoothie
L: LQ pizza, protein bar, pretzels
S: Small Mocha Frappe

Workout:
Jari Love Strength Workout 30 minutes, WATP 20 minutes.  Two days later (right now) I don't remember why I cut both workouts short.  Was I tired? Interrupted?  I will have to pay attention next time to see if it had to do with being tired due to the fasting.

Day 58:
Weight 224.2 (not getting too excited because you never know how it will look tomorrow lol)
Food:
L: about 4pm Peanut Butter sandwich on WW, pretzels, apple
S: Protein Bar
D: I don't want to say (I didn't pack a dinner and I had a class until 7:30 so ate on the run after class on way to pick up my son).  I know better than this, but don't know why I am not packing a cooler for days like this.

No workout since i didn't get home till about 9:30 and after being on the go for 12 hours I was beat.

Day 59:
Food:
B: Eggs with spinach and ff cheese, 2 WW toast, skim milk
S: FF fudgcicle, pretzels
L: Big salad w/ 2 oz teriyaki steak tips
S: skim milk, cherries, 1/2 c. chocolate ice cream smoothie (um yeah I have a problem with chocolate lately, maybe I always have but lately I'm noticing it more)
D: lean turkey burger no bun, sweet potatoe fries both with ketchup
S: pretzels, Welch's fruit snacks

Workout:
WATP a little over 3 miles 50 minutes. The workout went well, but I am really achey all over tonight and been getting headaches this week (even before the 1st fast you naysayers lol).

I had planned to do the fast twice a week for awhile but after writing this blog post I think I'm going to do only one day a week (mid week as the weekends are just too hard to stay on track) and to make an effort to eat cleaner and plan more.  I should never be without good choices for food available when I'm hungry.  Eating on the run, is not going to get me to where I want to be.  Which is a size 10 by my birthday in September, that's 5 sizes from where I'm at currently.

Eating clean
Being physically active
Getting plenty of sleep
Eating when I'm hungry (honestly I'm not sure eating several times a day is the best thing anymore).  I'm really torn at the moment about what is going to be best for me.  I understand and until now had agreed that eating frequently throughout the day helped you to avoid eating crappy or overeating, possibly speeding your metabolism.  Now I'm hearing more about how that is just keeping your insulin elevated all day instead of the few spikes from the typical 3 meals which is not necessarily a good thing.  And honestly shouldn't it be better to eat when your body is physically hungry and not just because its been 2 or 3 hours since your last snack.  I'm not a bodybuilder and I don't have the same needs as they do.  And then to answer the call of that hunger with clean healthy foods....  Marie, that doesn't include fat free fudgcicles and pretzels!!!!!

Days 55 & 56 - 24 hour fasting

Day 55
So today I tried a 24 hour fast.  I ate breakfast (well tried to drink a green smoothie and it didn't work too well) so I ended up having oatmeal and almonds around 10am.  Then nothing for the rest of the day except for water until breakfast the next day.  It really wasn't too bad, I didn't feel a real strong physical hunger and when I did I drank some water or found something else to occupy my mind.  Mostly what I experienced was the emotional hunger related to boredom or anxiety.
Didn't exericse as it was recommended not to workout when fasting, besides had an evening home alone with my sweetie so we watched a movie.
This was something I wanted to try as I feel I've been stuck and kind of frustrated.  I don't recommend this for everyone and am not suggesting it to anyone to try - this was something I wanted to try and think I may do again (possibly one day a week).  You eat every day at some point; either B then nothing till next morning or B and L then nothing till next afternoon at L - think I'll try it that way next time so I'm eating in the afternoon and feel up to working out.
Corinne and Joni if you're reading this, don't shoot me please. :)

Day 56
Weight: 226.2 down a pound from the other day (lowest I've gotten on this journey so far - finally down 10 pounds!).  Funny that I dreamed last night I was 226 (it was a strange dream).  Anyways I told myself this morning to dream I'm 225 next lol.  That's the number I've been wanting to see for the past few weeks.
B: scrambled eggs w/ ff cheese and spinach, 1 slice wheat toast and homefries, 1 c. skim milk
S: Yogurt/cherry smoothie
L: Protein Bar, Almonds (had brought a salad but it seemed a little chaotic at the shop today and I didn't eat it - I'll have it tomorrow)
S: Apple, snack pack m&m's
D: Quesadilla with very little cheese and chicken, ff sour cream
S: ff fudgcicle

Didn't work out again tonight :(.  Tomorrow is the Y for boxing and/or walking the track briskly. 

Okay so this doesn't look like me lol, but my gloves do look like these :)

Days 53 & 54 still hanging on literally lol

Day 53 Monday
weight: 227.4 yay starting its way back down.
Food:
B: 2 organic eggs scrambled w/ ff cheese and fresh spinach
S: almonds
L: Fajitas, nacho chips (lunch out)
D: grilled turkey and cheese sandwich
S: Yogurt & cherry smoothie

Activity:
Snowmobiling - okay I probably didn't burn any calories per se as I was just sitting on the back.  But I had to grip my boyfriend with my legs and arms around his middle so tight so I wouldn't fall off the back.  My arms are still sore the next night.  Feels like I did a major amount of pull ups.
This pic is not us but nice pic anyways :)

Day 54:
B: Yogurt/cherry smoothie
S: Protein Bar, grapes
L: Wrap w/ deli turkey breast, lettuce and spinach, 1 serving of FF pretzels
S: FF pudding, apple, almonds 100 cal pack
D: 2 fajitas, 1/2 sweet potatoe, skim milk
S: FF fudgcicle, fruit snacks

Activity:
Walk Away the Pounds tapes, 3 miles then 2 miles.  I didn't want to end my workout after 3 but didn't have the energy to do Tae Bo so I popped in the 2 miles tape. 

I haven't been planning my meals (not a smart move), not counting calories at the moment just trying to eat healthier. Okay okay so the fudgcicle and fruitsnacks were not nutritionally the best choices....

Days 51 & 52 - Getting in the Groove

Day 51
Saturday at the shop, no power at the house so I didn't get my smoothie fixed and felt disoriented in leaving the house.  No exercise today.
Food: this was a really bad day, but I'll suck it up and claim up to it.
B: Cheddar Bagel twist from DD
S: part of an orange, it didn't taste good so maybe only finished 1/3 of it, grapes
L: Protein Bar
D: McD's 3 chicken selects, fries and a mocha frappe.
S: FF fudgcicle
Even though I felt I did so bad foodwise, didn't plan, didn't pack my cooler just threw a protein bar, orange, oodles of noodles (which I didn't have) and some grapes in my bag and ran out the doo (by the time I was leaving work and picking up my son I was feeling ravenous and knew it would be at least an hour before I got home) I felt like I changed my mindset a bit.  It might have been the postings I was reading on Phit-n-Phat or just feeling crappy about my lack of success the last few weeks.  Not sure what it was but I woke up this morning feel much more energized and ready to get serious.

Day 52
B: Kashi Go Lean w/ Skim
Workout: 30 minute WATP video
S: Yogurt/Cherry smoothie
L: homemade chicken soup, shrimp
Workout: Strength Training (detailed below) 30 minutes, Tae Bo Basic 25 minutes (wasn't sure if I was going to be able to finish it, I was panting and sweaty but I just said I'll keep going till I really can't finish and then I had a burst of energy to finish it).
S: Protein Shake and 1 1/2 c. whole wheat pasta w/ tomatoe sauce
D: 4 oz turkey burger w/ spices no bun, green beans (was going to have salad but realized I tend to neglect my green beans so I changed it) and baked sweet potatoe fries
S: FF fudgcicle

I didn't track the calories.  This morning I looked at my old Weight Watchers books and decided I would try the Core Plan (I don't even know if they still do that) but basically it was clean eating foods that you don't have to track, and you get 35 points per week.  I used 4 points today with the protein shake and yogurt and I believe 1 for the fudgcicle.

Since I like alot of the clean eating foods (though almonds are not on the core plan list of foods bummer) I think I could generally follow this plan.  As long as I make sure I have the food available when I am hungry so that I do not stop at McD again, which is not a big problem for me, but still I have weak moments.

Strength training
squats  4x12
DB biceb curls 3x12 w/ 10lb
DB punches 3x12 w/5lb
Bent over Rows 3 x12 w/10lb
Kickbacks 2x12 w/5lb
Bicycle crunches 3x12  x 2
Mountain Climbers 2x24
Clean & Press 2x12 w/8lb
Chest Press on floor 2x12 w/8lb
DB pullover 2x12 w/8lb
Pelvic lifts 3x12  x2
5 Plyo Squat Jumps (those are fun but I started to feel a little light headed lol.